...hurt

I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole the old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything

What have I become? My sweetest friend
Everyone I know, goes away in the end

You could have it all, my empire of dirt
I will let you down, I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit, upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts, I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear
You are someone else, I am still right here

What have I become? My sweetest friend
Everyone I know, goes away in the end

You could have it all, my empire of dirt
I will let you down, I will make you hurt
If I could start again, a million miles away
I would keep myself, I would find a way